perception

I'm so scared of everyone

I'm even more scared of myself

If I take this drink

I won't feel so overwhelmed

Numb the fear

The pain

The shame

I don't want to remember your name

Where the hell are the keys to my cell

I have everything I've ever wanted 

More than I know I deserve

A family that keeps me anchored

Friends that would throw hands for me

But I can't shake the feeling that I was meant for hell

 I love my family so God damn much

 Why can't I love myself